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No, it's more than frustrated... I am mad. I want to just scream! I went to a first birthday party last weekend. It was for my friend's son. My friend is less than fortunate and doesn't live in a very good neighborhood, really. So of course, all the people there were also from the ghetto. All of them had at least 2 kids. I'm not saying that poor people have less of a right to have children than people who can afford to provide the essentials (though I am sure to some, that is debatable). I am saying it's bullshit that this particular group of people at the party clearly didn't want them and can have them! They weren't paying attention to the children at all. The children were dirty, and not just from the day. And what really chaps my ass is that they didn't even have to TRY to get pregnant. "It was an accident." ::Sigh::

I received the dreaded phone call yesterday from the nurse that even on my 4th round of clomid and my highest dose yet (150mg), I STILL didn't ovulate... This time it was more crushing than the others. I can't decide if it's because it's official that the clomid isn't working and we're on to more drastic steps or if it's because I really REALLY had myself convinced that this was it - I was going to be pregnant! Maybe a combination of both...

Today the dr. should be calling with the next steps. I guess I'm hoping I am strong enough to take them...


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May. 19th, 2010 12:52 pm (UTC)
It is extremely frustrating that people who don't want kids seem to have no problem getting pregnant but there are so many people who yearn to have kids who struggle. I was watching 16 & Pregnant and the 14 year old pregnant girl said "You can't prevent pregnancy". My brain nearly exploded.
May. 19th, 2010 03:05 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry that this weekend was so hard for you :( I remember how devastating failed rounds of Clomid could be. And as I recall, Clomid wreaked havoc on my emotions and made me much more prone to being sad and angry :( But just remember that you never know what their stories are. I'm sure someone could say similar things about me, because I want my kid to be independent and don't mind if she gets dirty and doesn't get a bath for a day or two... but you'd never know from a birthday party that I struggled to conceive for three years, and miscarried twins. It's impossible to know for sure what someone's story is, and I know that we all make judgments about other peoples' parenting, but just try to be thankful that you're not poor, that any pregnancy you have is going to be much desired, that you will be great parent, and that you have the resources to afford not only rounds of Clomid, but a child when the time comes. I know it's nearly impossible to be thankful for these things when you're struggling through infertility, but I've had friends who couldn't even afford Clomid who are still struggling with infertility, too. Anyway, just take care of yourself- I used to avoid baby showers and baby birthday parties because they were just too hard. I bet they would have been even worse while on Clomid... so be gentle with yourself. There's no reason to put yourself in situations that are going to stir up unhappy emotions if you can avoid them.
May. 20th, 2010 12:11 am (UTC)
*hugs* clomid never worked for me either and I was BEYOND frustrated by this. traumatized, even. :( but you still have lots of options! try to keep an open mind even though i know that is the LAST thing you want to hear! YOU ARE SO STRONG! IF I DID IT, YOU CAN DO THIS!!
May. 20th, 2010 04:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the support! It's so nice to know that I have a place to vent, no matter how irrational it is at times, and will not be judged.

Today is a new day, and I feel ready to move forward to explore our other options :)
May. 26th, 2010 01:37 pm (UTC)
I understand how you feel. I know someone who has 5 kids and she cant support them and the father is a crackhead. Its a shame how life "works".
Are you not going to be able to do two more cycles of Clomid? I thought that the standard was trying for 6 months. I hope that it works out for you sooner than later.
May. 26th, 2010 02:57 pm (UTC)
Actually, I do get to do at least one more cycle of Clomid! I was relieved. My RE didn't quite explain the next step well - or he did and I didn't understand. So much info all at once :) So I started provera and metformin and then will do another round of 150mg of Clomid. ::Crossing my fingers::
May. 27th, 2010 02:41 pm (UTC)
hoping the best for you! good luck!
Jul. 4th, 2012 01:10 am (UTC)
this is a total nightmare
hi everyone my name is kelly,i am married for 4 years with my husband but we are together for 6 years and we are trying to get pregnant for 5 years now,i have pcos and i have sex everyday of the week as long as am not am my period.this is recking my marriage because my husband gets upset sometimes because he really wants a baby.please can someone tell me what else to do?
Apr. 16th, 2014 02:55 am (UTC)
Re: dumb questions related to pregnancy and babies and stuff
I am 37 years old, just found out i am pregnant. I have three wonderful boys, with one man we were together 13 years but split when my youngest was 7 months old. I am now living with a man and been together for three years. The thing is i am scared about it having another child, and being the only parent to care for it. I love the man i am with, but he works long hours and is gone for weeks at a time. What am i to do to raise this child alone, one day i was browsing on the internet i saw chief oduduwa L, oduwalegba@outlook.com or +2348165061583, testimony saying that he help people who can’t get pregnant, and people that don’t have any child that are looking for, i quickly took his email and contact him for help after doing what he ask me to do things change and that day i got my self back again and i was having enough power and every thing went through. So i contact my friend that live in NYC she has be married for 12 years but no child, to my best surprise my friend that was childless for the past 12 years was pregnant oh my God with oduduwa all thing are possible
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